I have Facebook. I used to try and keep in touch with family and highschool friends and mommy friends…now just looking at it disgusts me. I don’t know them, they don’t know me. I don’t care what they do in their lives, and I don’t want them to care about mine.
I started writing on here, because no one would know. I could say anything I fucking want. No one would really care about a stranger…I don’t want anyone to care, or judge, or hope, or pray for me. Bit I tell. So now people I know read it and I don’t want to write on here either.
I don’t want to crawl in a hole anymore. I want to fly into space. I want to not feel or think. I rarely dream so I don’t have to worry about that. I want to dissolve… disintegrate, particles floating like dust in the sunlight…
I think if I go camping, completely alone. Bare minimum of food, water for days, nothing but me and God, nature.